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01 Sep 2009 -- 

- It must have been such a traumatic experience to have my adolescent diaries destroyed by my cousin's family's stupidity. Dreamed about it again. Again, hoping in the dream to find the lost writings. I have no choice but to observe this bubbling up of the shock to my consciousness from the betrayal of trust and realization that it's long gone -- my meticulous writings that meant so much to me are part of the Orange County Landfill. I am also surprised that this shock has not cleansed itself -- those writings must have meant a lot to me. Anyway, life goes on and I trust this will eventually clean up from my consciousness, not eventually  in time, but eventually through the observation of any remaining ripples.

My name was on the box, they knew how much my writings mean to me, yet, they destroyed it -- I can guess as to the motives -- but let's just say, utter stupidity and craziness which is common in Orange County, specially in Irvine -- the machine life Oriana Fallaci wrote about is right there -- soul of cars are everywhere but people don't walk in the streets. Of course there are always exceptions.

In the dream I hoped that  I would not wake up so I can find the box.

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10 July 2009

Another case of camel dreaming of cotton seed. Dreamed of the destroyed diaries – this time the box was found at Parand’s – Farid’s sister’s house – a lovely lady and lovely family – haven’t seen them for ages – but back then we were close. It was like, Gosh, that’s right, the diaries were there, in her garage – they were locked and sealed and I was incredibly thrilled happy joyful ecstatic to have found this biggest lost part of my life. Only to wake up in disappointment that it was only a dream.

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Dear Farid & Maryam

We have not spoken for ages. I could not handle having any contact with you guys, as much as I love you all, after my most precious possession was destroyed by you guys. I know when we last met you denied it -- but after putting everything Payam and you guys said togerher, plus Mr. S., who actually saw the box before it was dumped, there was plenty of indication that you guys dumped the box. It would not have evaporated by itself and there is no doubt that it was there -- you had agreed to hold it for me -- I had not forced you to -- I don't know if there is a English word for it but in Farsi it is called "amin" and "amanat dary". The box was an amanat.

Payam said it was dumped because it was "useless papers and fire hazard". My diaries may be useless to another person, but these were diaries that initiated the biggest and longest project of my life -- to write the book of life itself. Now, some 7 years of it is gone. The writings included my meticulously written accounts of being a 14 year old in Iran, going through a love event, going through the revolution, writing the many lessons I was learning from experiences, life itself, from parents, grandparents, and others, the adventure of the move from Iran to America as a 15 year old, fitting into a new culture, highschool experiences, moving to California, having life changing experiences, and all the reflections and meditations and stories that went along with these and other events. All gone, except what remains in memory cells as small food for that long writing project. Useless to Payam, ok. But to say it was a fire hazard (and I don't dispute that it was) so we dumped without giving me a chance to take it, is so incredibly lame. One phone call, one email, one sms, and the box would have been out of there in 10 minutes. I could have called a taxi to come and get it, if not a friend or a relative. Dump! Thank you.

I am not writing to complain or chastise you. I did not say a word to you upon my initial anger and frustration and disappointment and sorrow caused by this act. I just never contacted you again because there was nothing to say -- nagging about it or blaming you would not have brought the box back. I just took a hike and didn't look back. The pain followed me although I tried to move on and wipe the pain. Last night I had a dream. It hit me in the head again.It was a sweet dream that turned into a nightmare. As the first part of that Farsi poem goes, Shotor dar khaab binad panbeh daaneh. Camel sees cotton seed in dream.

I know this would be just as unreal as a camel's dream of cotton seed and a long shot in the dark, but if you happen to have info any info where I could find my box, or if you have any of the contents, please let me know.

In the dream, you said it was in another part of the house. I was deeply sad by the loss and almost in tears. we looked and there was a box - way on a top shelf - from below I looked - I was sure I had put it there - I remembered the exact day I put it there (as I did in reality about the real box) - I could smell the box from that distance that would take some effort to get to - a ladder or chain and hook that came...

I was about to get my long lost treasure chest back, with my little red and little brown, and little black notebooks that I neatly wrote everything in.

The saddest moment was when I gently woke up and realized it was just a dream! What a damn pity!

Upon waking, I thought of calling the dumpster where your bin was taken to - - but last time I looked it was one massive landfill with absolutely no hope of recovery. I gave up last time and I should give up now, and I do - I have no choice.

Having found my long-lost treasure was just a dream - perhaps merely an echo in the cleansing of the consciousness of the extreme pain of not only the loss, but the denial by you guys who were so dear -- you were my dear friends despite being family, closer than family -- and the utter shock of betrayal of trust, and having to work so hard to get to the truth, and shattering of a key piece of that project which sprang in a young passionate heart/mind. I can not figure out which one of you made the decision to simply dump this box or that it was a collaborative decision. Certainly it was not Mr. S., who dumped the box although you tried to blame him for it. This is all water under the bridge. I am not stuck on any of this -- I lived through the pain and moved on - or tried to move on as far as I was able to - and hope this last dream was just a last step in the cleansing as this thing echoed out of my consciousness.

If you happen to have any idea where it might be, of have any of the contents, please let me know.
Good wishes to you.
Reza





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